Monday, April 13, 2009


I found out I was pregnant Friday before last. I didn't want to post anything about it till I was further along. I'm pretty sure I was about 4 weeks along. This weekend I started spotting a little and it got real heavy last night. I've been having a lot of cramping as well. I'm pretty sure I've lost the baby. I called the doc this morning and am still waiting to hear back from them. My heart hurts so bad that I've lost my new little baby. I know it hasn't been confirmed by a doctor, but I just don't feel like I'm still pregnant. I don't understand why this would happen. I've had two perfectly healthy babies, why would I lose this one. My heart hurts so bad right now. I know that I was only pregnant for a short while, but it was still my little baby to me. I was already picking out names and thinking about new baby clothes. I could see that new baby being born, me holding and nursing it, loving it... I could see it growing older and running around playing with Tad and Lexie. Maybe they'll tell me at the doctor that everything is ok. Maybe I could have a miracle. Maybe my little baby is still in there growing. I wanted this baby so bad. It just doesn't make sense why this happened... Please pray for me, my heart is breaking.


Cindy said...

I sincerely hope that everything will be okay. Keep positive and happy thoughts. I'll pray for you and your little one.


Anonymous said...

Cindy is right, we are all praying for you and the baby and know that God is watching over you and your family. We think and speak good things for you and yours.
Love Jan