Crafting disaster

Today Mom and I decided to have a craft day. We managed to make only a few things before disaster struck. We used her Convection oven/Toaster oven to bake the clay. We have never done this before... always used her regular oven. Well... It must have gotten too hot. I started smelling something burning. When Mom got up to check on it (it had only been in there 3 minutes, it's supposed to bake for about 15 min.) it was smoking. Lots and Lots of smoke!!! If it had gone any longer, we would have had a fire. Both of our little creations were ruined...

This was a fairy that she had worked on for a very long time.... it WAS very cute...

This was my blue bird. Yes, it was blue. A very pretty shade of blue. Now
it's just black and lumpy where it bubbled up. I'm not sure why this happened, but we will never use this oven again for polymer clay!!!
Very disappointing. I did however make a tiny mushroom, that didn't turn out all that cute and another cupcake pin. I'll post the pics later.

A cat named Moo

I have been saying for the last few years that I will never have an inside cat again. Well... I just couldn't resist this little cutie. My parents cat had a litter a couple of months ago, actually on my birthday, and this one was just so cute and sweet. It needed to come home with me. The plan is for it to stay in Lexie's room when she's here, and she has promised to keep the litter box clean. So, we'll see how it goes. I absolutely hate cleaning out a litter box. His name is Moo. He looked like a little baby cow when he was born, not so much now, but the name just seemed fitting. Bobby introduced him to Eddie (our dog) last night. That didn't go over so well... Eddie was scared to death of the little kitty, who has always seemed so sweet and calm. Sweet and calm around Eddie... not so much. He turned into a hissing little monster. He never touched Eddie, but from the sounds he was making and the way he was fluffing up, you could tell, he and Eddie probably won't be friends for a while. Bobby and I both tried to pick Moo up and get him out of the laundry room where Eddie was, yeah, well... needless to say, we both got scratched up pretty good. I tried to pick him up by the skin on his neck. I thought that would be the safest way to do it. No, the little monster completely turned inside out and clawed the daylights out of my hand. Then Bobby pretty much had to hold me down and pour peroxide on my scratches. I wasn't happy about that. But he's getting much more playful and comfortable walking around the house now. He's not hiding really hiding behind furniture much anymore, except when Tad comes around. He's pretty scared of him. Tad keeps trying to give him his toys, and doesn't quite know how to be gentle with him yet, so every time Moo sees the baby, he just takes off running, and Tad's following behind him saying "Awwww" It's so funny.

This isn't the best picture, his eyes were kind of goopy. Yes, Dad, I am still washing his face every day.

Being thankful

So today while outside planting some new plants, my mind kept wandering off to the things I like and the things I dislike. Who know's why... I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Such as...

I don't like...

• Flying insects (including butterflys and moths) (Fireflies and Ladybugs excluded)
  
• Fire ants
• Spiders
• Bad gardening gloves
• Hornets in my house (yes I've had 2 in the last 24 hours... that's a story I'll have to tell later)
• Not having money
• Cellulite and my back fat that rolls over my bra
• Dry itchy skin
  

Yes, the list could go on, but as I was thinking all of this, I kept telling myself to just keep coming up with more of the things that I really love. Who knows why this has been in my head this morning, maybe it's my subconscious telling me that I need to be more thankful. Hmmmm...

Things I love: (in no particular order)

• Five hour energy shots
• Red breasted robins
• Springtime and Autumn
• Cute socks
• Crocs
• Polymer clay
• Marlboro menthol (yeah, I know I was supposed to be quitting)
• Ribbon
• Anything toile
• Roosters, (not actual roosters although I'm sure they are nice and all but I'm talking about things with pictures of roosters on them)
• Diet Grapico
• My Sony Alpha 300
• Drains that flow properly
• Chardonnay
• Baby kisses
• Tulips
• My trips to visit Jan and Jim (aunt and uncle)
• Lip balm!
• Cheese dip (really, most dips... I could dip anything, yeah, I'm a dipper...)
• Purple
• The smell of basil and cilantro (not together, of course)
• My dads Moose food (he just calls it that, its really just the best nachos ever)
• Camping
• Target clearance
• Surprises from Bobby... he's always bringing me home little goodies, even if it's just from a gumball machine
• Fresh flowers in my kitchen
• Fat free French vanilla coffee creamer
• My garbage disposal
  
• Watching Heroes on Monday nights
• Cream cheese
  
• My Shabby Chic duvets and quilt
• The way my Mom and Dad light up every time they see my children

Of course my family, but that goes without saying. This list could go on. I'll probably think of plenty more as the day goes on, and I'm not even really sure why I'm even putting this on here. But, you know, thinking about all of the little things you're grateful for sometimes helps put you in a better frame of mind. Even kind of cheers you up...




If you have the time, post some of the tings you are thankful for in my comment section. I'd love to see them.

Bonnet pincushion

Well, here is the bonnet pincushion... finally finished. Thanks Cindy for the instructions. It didn't turn out as cute as yours, it's a little crooked on top, but I will make some more.

I had to go get blood work done yesterday to see if the pregnancy hormone is dropping. It's gone down to 100. It was 300 last Monday when they told me I had miscarried. I'll have to go in next week to have them check it again. Hopefully I won't have to have a D & C. I don't really know anything about it and it just scares me... I'm sure women have them all the time, but can there be complications? I don't know. I just know that I don't want to have it done!

We really didn't do much this weekend. We were going to start working on our vegetable garden, but it started raining so I suppose we'll have to do it next weekend... weather permitting. My roses are blooming out and look so pretty. My little bush has about 20 blooms on it. Bobby cut me a couple and I have them in the kitchen window. I just love the smell of these roses. Bobby can't smell them, it's the strangest thing. He's never been able to smell a rose. The first one he has been able to smell was one that came off of my mom and dad's bush this weekend. You could see the look of suprise on his face when he said "I can smell it!" I just wish he could smell these...

Well, Tad's napping now, I've got lots of housework to catch up on. I've been sitting here at the computer all day. Time to get to work...

Healing

Yesterday was a good day. I was still sad, but it was the first day that things have started to feel normal again. Me, Mom and the kids took our bi-weekly trip to visit my aunt and uncle, and it did me a lot of good. We laughed, ate good food, and just had a really good time. They gave me this beautiful pink flowering vine (I can't think of the name of it... it's too hard to pronounce anyway.) I think we're going to build a trellis on the back of the house for it to grow up. At home, in the evening, Bobby gave Lexie and Tad wagon rides through the back yard. It was Tad's first time, and he loved it! I thought he would be terrified but he actually cried every time Bobby would stop! It was so funny...

Here he is getting kisses from Eddie. I love this picture...


I thought this picture was funny 'cause they both had their mouths open! Lexie's being dramatic, as usual...


So...yeah, I'm beginning to heal and find some peace. I have struggled so much trying to understand why and get answers. I've been so frustrated with God, wanting to know why he didn't answer my prayers, why He took my baby away, but I am starting to come to terms with the fact that my baby's in a much better place right now, than being here on this earth. I'm still hurting, but I am dealing with it better. I actually put on make up today and cleaned the house. My brain doesn't seem to be in that same fog that it's been in for the last several days. There's no sense in being mad at God anymore. He knows what's best... (two days ago, I couldn't have said that) But my little baby is in Heaven, and God had a reason for it. So, I don't suppose I have to understand why. I'm just going to trust Him now.

Gone

My baby's gone... It's been a horrible, terrible, painful day. My heart hurts so bad right now.

Hurting

I found out I was pregnant Friday before last. I didn't want to post anything about it till I was further along. I'm pretty sure I was about 4 weeks along. This weekend I started spotting a little and it got real heavy last night. I've been having a lot of cramping as well. I'm pretty sure I've lost the baby. I called the doc this morning and am still waiting to hear back from them. My heart hurts so bad that I've lost my new little baby. I know it hasn't been confirmed by a doctor, but I just don't feel like I'm still pregnant. I don't understand why this would happen. I've had two perfectly healthy babies, why would I lose this one. My heart hurts so bad right now. I know that I was only pregnant for a short while, but it was still my little baby to me. I was already picking out names and thinking about new baby clothes. I could see that new baby being born, me holding and nursing it, loving it... I could see it growing older and running around playing with Tad and Lexie. Maybe they'll tell me at the doctor that everything is ok. Maybe I could have a miracle. Maybe my little baby is still in there growing. I wanted this baby so bad. It just doesn't make sense why this happened... Please pray for me, my heart is breaking.

Sick baby

Do they make a sippie cup that you can put Coke in without it going everywhere? If they do, I'd sure like to know what kind it is. Please don't think I'm a bad mother for giving my baby Coke, but he is sick, Mom says milk makes the mucus worse and someone told me that Coke will help it. Well, I now have Coke all over the floor. Yes, it did keep my crying, miserable little baby occupied for a while, drawing all over my wood floor with it, but now it is very, very sticky. I've tried two different cups, one regular, and it literally just poured everywhere and one with a straw. It just kept fizzing up the straw, at least he thought that was pretty fun. It's been such a bad day. I have baby snot all over my face, my clothes and yes... my hair. I can't even run my fingers through it! I know that's disgusting, but I can't get away from him long enough to take a shower. Not only is he sick with a gosh aweful cold, but he is cutting a molar and his little gum is so swolen, I don't see how he can stand it. He seems so miserable. He barely slept last night, I didn't get much either, of course. He just keeps biting me and banging his head into me. I'm doing Tylenol and Orajel, gave him a popsicle, baby vapor rub, and I don't know much else to do. Bobby's working late tonight, but hopefully he'll give me a break when he gets home so I can wash all this snot off of me... Gotta go, he's crying again...

Cigarettes and Pincushions

I am trying to quit smoking, so I haven't blogged the past two days. It's hard to come in this room (where my computer and craft stuff is) because this is where we smoke. This room or outside. I have only had 5 today. I know that sounds like a lot, but compared to what I usually smoke, that's pretty good. Bobby has sneaked in several more today, and I'm trying REALLY hard to not get mad at him. It is just so hard. I hate quitting smoking. I enjoy my cigarettes so very much. I've done it before though and I can do it again! I know, I never should have started back, that was stupid. They're just so good...

Anyway, on a more cheerful note here is my newest pincushion made from a Coke bottle cap.
This is my newest cupcake. It's an Easter one, see the little marshmallow Peep on top. I just haven't glued it on a pin yet. The little Peep really looks better in person than in the picture. I need a better lens on my camera to get really up close shots like this. Christmas present, Mom... (hint, hint)

I actually went and got my hair done Saturday for the first time in 8 1/2 years. It was red, but I was getting so tired of dyeing it every two weeks ( I have naturally blonde hair.) So, now it is blonde with red. Really really blonde. It took me a little while to get used to it. Bobby says it's really wild looking, but I like it now, a lot actually. I feel so much better. I was really starting to feel frumpy. They put some layers in it to blend my bangs in better, and it looks really good. I'm going to have to go get my hair done more often, it was kind of fun! It did take 3 hours though, which was pretty bad. I'll have to get Bobby to take a picture so I can put it on here. Well, I'm going to get out of this room now, so I won't want to light up again...

Always listen to your mother

If you remember from my post several days ago "Feather Fiasco" I never sewed up the left over part of the feather bed. I had it tied, obviously not too well, with a ribbon. Well, my sweet hubby, while looking for a pair of pliers, that he swore I had, went looking for them and got feathers everywhere. I know he will absolutely deny this, but he did it. Yes, mom, I should have listened to you. Lesson learned. Always listen to your mother, she usually always knows best. I should have sewed the darn thing up. So I have been trying to clean up feathers today. They don't sweep up very well. I don't know if you've ever tried sweeping up a bunch of feathers, but I will tell you, it is not an easy task. They just go everywhere. Fly up in the air and get in your nose. It has not been fun. I will probably never get them up and will find them in various corners of the house, I just know it! I have been trying to get the house clean today and not get distracted by my polymer clay, but it is calling to me... "Make something, make something, you can clean later." It would be so much more fun than doing the dishes and the laundry and cleaning up dog puke, ( I knew better than to give him a hot dog weenie.) I have been good, but the house is still a mess, and what am I doing now... sitting here blogging. I have to take a break every now and again, right?... Well... back to my cleaning.

Cupcake pincushion

So I decided last night to go ahead and make my cupcake. It didn't turn out how I wanted. I think it's kind of short and squatty, but I'll make another one soon and it will be better.



This is my strawberry and blueberries cake


Key Lime pie


Chocolate doughnut with strawberry icing


Mom and I made some more pins today. I'll have to get the pictures up later, tonight is our grocery shopping night, so I had to post this really quick. Wal-mart, here we come... maybe I'll even get a chance to stop by their craft section :)